It breaks my heart, yet every time there is anticipation anew and fresh. Excitement and the courage to keep watching. Its vampires the attract me in a way that I haven't felt for any other thing. Or maybe it is just everything supernatural. Is ther magic? Does the supernatural really exist. Why is that in its wake I forget everything even my beloved. And even then I know that it is better to be kept in the dark than to be educated. It is better these things are left to imagination because I can't imagine the kind of havoc my life will be in if something messed it up especially the one that I love.
I might resent them and take out long passed out grudges but I love them the thing that sets me apart from the other person is this. Why when I left the country the only thing I asked was for safety of this place i have begun to dwell in since the time of my birth. I don't know any other way of life except this and I don't want any other way of life. Maybe when I am alittle agitated I might forget this but never would i want it any different. I keep this the here on the WWW as a record of what I said. This is one place where things might remain eternally
